tonight, tonightDAWN TO DUSK
jellybelly
welcome to
nowhere fast
nothing here
ever lasts
nothing but
memories
of what never
was
we're nowhere,
we're nowhere, we're nowhere to be
nowhere, we're
nowhere, we're nowhere to see
living makes
me sick
so sick I
wish i'd die
down in the
belly of the beast
I can't lie
you're nowhere,
you're nowhere, you're nowhere to be
nowhere, you're
nowhere, you're nowhere to see
there's nothing
left to do
there's nothing
left to feel
doesn't matter
what you want, so
to make yourself
feel better
you make is
so you'll never
give in to
your forevers
and live for
always
and forever,
forever, you're forever to be
forever, forever,
you're forever to me
zero
my reflection,
dirty mirror
there's no
connection to myself
i'm your lover,
i'm your zero
i'm the face
in your dreams of glass
so save your
prayers
for when we're
really gonna need 'em
throw out
your cares and fly
wanna go for
a ride?
she's the
one for me
she's all
I really need
cause she's
the one for me
emptiness
is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
and cleanliness
is godliness, and god is empty just like me
intoxicated
with the madness, i'm in love with my sadness
bullshit fakers,
enchanted kingdoms
the fashion
victims chew their charcoal teeth
I never let
on, that I was on a sinking ship
I never let
on that I was down
you blame
yourself, for what you can't ignore
you blame
yourself for wanting more
she's the
one for me
she's all
I really need
she's the
one for me
she's my one
and only
here
is no why
the useless
drag of another day
the endless
drags of a death rock boy
mascara sure
and lipstick lost
glitter burned
by restless thoughts of being forgotten
and in your
sad machines
you'll forever
stay
desperate
and displeased-with whoever you are
and you're
a star
somewhere-he
pulls his hair down-over a frowning smile
a hidden diamond
you cannot find
a secret star
that cannot shine over to you
may the king
of gloom, be forever doomed
and in your
sad machines
you'll forever
stay
burning up
in speed
lost inside
the dreams, of teen machines
the useless
drags, the empty days
the lonely
towers of long mistakes
to forgotten
faces and faded loves
sitting still
was never enough
and if you're
giving in, then you're giving up
cause in your
sad machines
you'll forever
stay
burning up
in speed
lost inside
the dreams, of teen machines
bullet
with butterfly wings
the world
is a vampire, sent to drain
secret destroyers,
hold you up to the flames
and what do
I get, for my pain
betrayed desires,
and a piece of the game
even though
I know
I suppose
I'll show
all my cool
and cold
like old job
despite all
my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
then someone
will say what is lost can never be saved
despite all
my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
now i'm naked,
nothing but an animal
but can you
fake it, for just one more show
and what do
you want, I want to change
and what have
you got
when you feel
the same
even though
I know-I suppose i'll show
all my cool
and cold-like old job
despite all
my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
then someone
will say what is lost can never be saved
despite all
my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
tell me i'm
the only one
tell me there's
no other one
jesus was
an only son
tell me i'm
the chosen one
jesus was
an only son for you
despite all
my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
and I still
believe that I cannot be saved
to forgive
ten times
removed
I forget about
where it all began
bastard son
of a bastard son of
a wild eyed
child of the sun
and right
as rain, i'm not the same but
I feel the
same, I feel nothing
holding back
the fool again
holding back
the fool pretends
I forget to
forget nothing is important
holding back
the fool again
I sensed my
loss
before I even
learned to talk
and I remember
my birthdays
empty party
afternoons won't come back
holding back
the fool again
holding back
the fool pretends
I forget to
forget nothing is important
holding back
the fool again
I forget to
forget me
I forget to
forget you see
nothing is
important to me
I knew my
loss
before I even
learned to speak
and all along,
I knew it was wrong
but I played
along, with my birthday song
holding back
the fool again
holding back
the fool pretends
I forget to
forget nothing is important
holding back
the fool again
fuck
you (an ode to no one)
i'm never
coming back
i'm never
giving in
i'll never
be the shine in your spit
I disconnect
the act
I disconnect
the dots
I disconnect
the me in me
and you're
mistaken, it's you that's faking
living and
breathing and dying too
this message
is for anyone who dares to hear a fool
you can't
bring me back, you can't bring me back
cause I gave
it all back to you
thru sacred
alleys, the living wrecks
wreak their
havoc upon this world
the disenchanted,
the romantics,
the body and
face and soul of you is gone down that deep black hole
destroy the
mind-destroy the body-but you cannot destroy the heart
and you, you
make me so I need to disconnect
and you make
it so real
I don't need
your love to disconnect
to runaround
kids in get-go cars
with vaseline
afterbirths and neon coughs
galaxies full
of nobodies
giving us
the farewell runarounds
I took a virgin
mary axe to his sweet baby jane,
lost my innocence
to a no good girl, scratch my face with anvil hands,
and coil my
tongue around a bumblebee mouth
and I give
it all back to you
no way, I
don't need it, I don't need your love to disconnect
and you make
it, so real, I don't need your love to disconnect
no way to
disconnect
and you make
it so real
I don't need
your love to disconnect
no way to
disconnect
love
to my mistakes,
to my mistakes of cowardice
she shimmy
shakes, the jimmy jakes of consequence
born of the
airs and dues, my airs of madness do declare
that it's
ok, it's love
it's what
you wanted to see, it's who you wanted to be
for what you
needed to need, she'll make it up
love, it's
who you know
machine gun
blues, her vacant rush is so steel
i'm unaware,
lost inside your visions
I got mine
too over, I got mine and I got you
cause I know
you, you're love
it's what
you wanted to see, it's who you wanted to be
for what you
needed to need, she'll make it up
love, it's
who you know
can I look
up to you as you look down on me
can I feel
in to you as you felt in to me
I can't help
what you see, I can't help but to be
for what I
needed to need, she'll make it
love, it's
who you know
cupid
de locke
cupid hath
pulled back hI sweetheart's bow
to cast divine
arrows into her soul
to grab her
attention swift and quick
or morrow
the marrow of her bones be thick
with turpentine
kisses and mistaken blows
see the devil
may do as the devil may care
he loves none
sweeter as sweeter the dare
her mouth
the mischief he doth seek
her heart
the captive of which he speaks
so note all
ye lovers in love with the sound
your world
be shattered with nary a note
of one cupids
arrow under your coat
and in the
land of star crossed lovers
and barren
hearted wanderers
forever lost
in forsaken missives and satan's pull
we seek the
unseekable and we speak the unspeakable
our hopes
dead gathering dust to dust
in faith,
in compassion, and in love
galapogos
ain't it funny
how we pretend we're still a child
softly stolen
under our blanket skies
and rescue
me from me, and all that I believe
I won't deny
the pain
I won't deny
the change
and should
I fall from grace here with you
will you leave
me too?
carve out
your heart for keeps in an old oak tree
and hold me
for goodbyes-and whispered lullabyes
and tell me
I am still
the man i'm
supposed to be
I won't deny
the pain
I won't deny
the change
and should
I fall from grace here with you
will you leave
me too?
too late to
turn back now, i'm running out of sound
and I am changing,
changing
and if we
died right now, this fool you love somehow
is here with
you
I won't deny
the pain
I won't deny
the change
and should
I fall from grace here with you
would you
leave me too?
muzzle
I fear that
I am ordinary, just like everyone
to lie here
and die among the sorrows
adrift among
the days
for everything
I ever said
and everything
i've ever done is gone and dead
as all things
must surely have to end
and great
loves will one day have to part
I know that
I am meant for this world
my life has
been extraordinary
blessed and
cursed and won
time heals
but i'm forever broken
by and by
the way...
have you ever
heard the words
i'm singing
in these songs?
it's for the
girl i've loved all along
can a taste
of love be so wrong
as all things
must surely have to end
and great
loves will one day have to part
I know that
I am meant for this world
and in my
mind as I was floating
far above
the clouds
some children
laughed i'd fall for certain
for thinking
that i'd last forever
but I knew
exactly where I was
and I knew
the meaning of it all
and I knew
the distance to the sun
and I knew
the echo that is love
and I knew
the secrets in your spires
and I knew
the emptiness of youth
and I knew
the solitude of heart
and I knew
the murmurs of the soul
and the world
is drawn into your hands
and the world
is etched upon your heart
and the world
so hard to understand
is the world
your can't live without
and I knew
the silence of the world
porcelina
of the vast oceans
as far as
you take me, that's where I believe
the realm
of soft delusions, floating on the laves
on a distant
shoreline, she waves her arms to me
as all the
thought police, and closing in for sleep
the dilly
dally, of my bright lit stay
the steam
of my misfortunes
has given
me the power to be afraid
and in my
mind i'm everyone
and in my
mind
without a
care in this whole world
without a
care in this life
it's what
you take that makes it right
porcelina
of the oceans blue
in the slipstream,
of thoughtless thoughts
the light
of all that's good, the light of all that's true
to the fringes
gladly, I walk unadorned
with gods
and their creations
with filth
and disease
porcelina,
she waits for me there
with seashell
hissing lullabyes
and whispers
fathomed deep inside my own
hidden thoughts
and alibis
my secret
thoughts come alive
without a
care in this whole world
without a
care in this life
it's what
you take that makes it right
and in my
mind i'm everyone
in my mind
i'm everyone of you
you make it
right
it's all allright
you make it
right
porcelina
of the oceans blue
take
me down
take me down,
to the underground
won't you
take me down, to the underground
why oh why,
there is no light
and if I can't
sleep, can you hold my life
and all I
see is you
take my hand,
I lost where I began
in my heart
I know all of my faults
will you help
me understand
and I believe
in you
you're the
other half of me
soothe and
heal...
when you sleep,
when you dream,
i'll be there
if you need me, whenever I hear you sing...
there is a
sun, it'll come, the sun, I hear them call me down
I held you
once, a love that once, and life had just begun
and you're
all I see...
and trumpets
blew, and angels flew on the other side
and you're
all I see, and you're all i'll need
there's a
love that god puts in your heart
where boys fear to treadTWILIGHT TO STARLIGHT
bodies
cast the pearls
aside, of a simple life of need
come into
my life forever
the crumbled
cities stand as known
of the sights
you have been shown
of the hurt
you call your own
love is suicide
the empty
bodies stand at rest
casualties
of their own flesh
afflicted
by their dispossession
but no bodies
ever knew
nobodys
no bodies
felt like you
nobodys
love is suicide
now we drive
the night, to the ironies of peace
you can't
help deny forever
the tragedies
reside in you
the secret
sights hide in you
the lonely
nights divide you in two
all my blisters
now revealed
in the darkness
of my dreams
in the spaces
in between us
but no bodies
ever knew
nobodys
no bodies
felt like you
nobodys
love is suicide
thirty-three
speak to me
in a language I can hear humour me before I have to go
deep in thought
I forgive everyone
as the cluttered
streets greet me once again
I know I can't
be late, supper's waiting on the table
tomorrow's
just an excuse away
so I pull
my collar up and face the cold, on my own
the earth
laughs beneath my heavy feet
at the blasphemy
in my old jangly walk
steeple guide
me to my heart and home
the sun is
out and up and down again
I know I'll
make it, love can last forever
graceful swans
of never topple to the earth
and you can
make it last, forever you
you can make
it last, forever you
and for a
moment I lose myself
wrapped up
in the pleasures of the world
I've journeyed
here and there and back again
but in the
same old haunts I still find my friends
mysteries
not ready to reveal
sympathies
I'm ready to return
I'll make
the effort, love can last forever
graceful swans
of never topple to the earth
tomorrow's
just an excuse
and you can
make it last, forever you
you can make
it last, forever you
in the
arms of sleep
sleep will
not come to this tired body now
peace will
not come to this lonely heart
there are
some things I'll live without
but I want
you to know that I need you right now
I need you
tonite
I steal a
kiss from her sleeping shadow moves
cause I'll
always miss her wherever she goes
and I'll always
need her more than she could ever need me
I need someone
to ease my mind
but sometimes
a someone is so hard to find
and I'll do
anything to keep her here tonite
and I'll say
anything to make her feel alright
and I'll be
anything to keep her here tonite
cause I want
you to stay, with me
I need you
tonite
she comes
to me like an angel out of time
as I play
the part of a saint on my knees
there are
some things I'll live without
but I want
you to know that I need you right now
suffer my
desire
suffer my
desire
suffer my
desire for you
1979
shakedown
1979, cool kids never have the time
on a live
wire right up off the street
you and I
should meet
junebug skipping
like a stone
with the headlights
pointed at the dawn
we were sure
we'd never see an end to it all
and I don't
even care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't
know
just where
our bones will rest
to dust I
guess
forgotten
and absorbed into the earth below
double cross
the vacant and the bored
they're not
sure just what we have in the store
morphine city
slippin dues down to see
that we don't
even care as restless as we are
we feel the
pull in the land of a thousand guilts
and poured
cement, lamented and assured
to the lights
and towns below
faster than
the speed of sound
faster than
we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope
justine never
knew the rules,
hung down
with the freaks and the ghouls
no apologies
ever need be made, I know you better than you fake it
to see that
we don't care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't
know just where our bones will rest
to dust I
guess
forgotten
and absorbed into the earth below
the street
heats the urgency of sound
as you can
see there's no one around
tales
of a scorched earth
farewell goodnight
last one out turn out the lights
and let me
be, let me die inside
let me know
the way from of this world of hate in you
cause the
dye is cast, and the bitch is back
and we're
all dead teah we're all dead
inside the
future of a shattered past
I lie just
to be real, and I'd die just to feel
why do the
same old things keep on happening?
because beyond
my hopes there are no feelings
bless the
martyrs and kiss the kids
for knowing
better, for knowing this
cause you're
all whores and I'm a fag
and I've got
no mother and I've got no dad
to save me
the wasted, save me from myself
I lie just
to be real, and I'd die just to feel
why do the
same old things keep on happening?
because beyond
my hopes there are no feelings
everybody's
lost just waiting to be found
everyone's
a thought just waiting to fade
so fuck it
all cause I don't care
so what somehow
somewhere we dared
to try to
dare to dare for a little more
I lie just
to be real, and I'd die just to feel
why do the
same old things keep on happening?
because beyond
my hopes there are no reasons
thru
the eyes of ruby
wrap me up
in always, and drag me in with maybes
your innocence
is treasure, your innocence is death
your innocence
is all I have
breathing
underwater, and living under glass
and if you
spin your love around
the secrets
of your dreams
you may find
your love is gone
and is not
quite what it seemed
to appear
to disappear
beneath all
your darkest fears
I believe
in never, I believe in all the way
but belief
is not to notice, believe is just some faith
and faith
can't help you to escape
and with this
ring I wed thee true
and with this
ring I wed thee now
and with this
ring I play so dead
but no one's
asking for the truth, so let me tell you
if you spin
your love around
the secrets
of your dreams
you may find
your love is gone
and is not
quite what it seemed
to appear
to disappear
beneath all
your darkest fears
to the revelations
of fresh faced youth
no one will
come to save you
so speak your
peace in the murmurs drawn
but youth
is wasted on the young
your strength
is my weakness, your weakness my hate
my love for
you just can't explain
why we're
forever frozen, forever beautiful,
forever lost
inside ourselves
the night
has come to hold us young
stumbleine
boredoms in
the bathroom shaking out the loose teeth
sally's in
the stirrups claiming her destiny
and nobody
nowhere understands anything
about me and
all my dreams
lost at sea
jack it up
judy set your heart alight
mayfair mistress
of the satellies
misspent youth-
faking up a rampage
to hold off
the real slaves
paid off and
staid
and what you
never knew
can never
get to you
so fake it
I'll be your
stubmleine
I'll be your
super queen
and make you
jukebox fuckup
hanging round the drugstore
no matter
what you say he'll be back for more
mommy's in
the manger with the little kids
she's got
her reasons, got my forgets
of tears and
idle threats
misplaced
and no matter
what they do
they can't
get to you
so fake it
I'll be your
stumbleine
I'll be your
super queen
and make you
me
come around
ruby I could never sleep alone
x.y.u.
she didn't
wanna be, she didn't wanna know
she couldn't
run away cause she was crazy
she gave it
all away, she saw her baby break
and in the
air it hung that she was dull razors
and I said,
I wanna fill you up, I wanna break you, I wanna give you up
from one another,
another one should come to one another
no one should
come between us
still I was
lonely, and she was by my side, my one and only
knows that
she could never hide
I couldn't
feel her, and it was just a game,
cause I was
lonely and she was crazy
rat-tat-tat,
ka boom boom, now take that, and just a bit of this
cause I'm
a watcher, and I'm a doer of none
come to save
you, cause you're all mine
I hurt where
I can't feel, I feel where I can't hurt
I know where
I can't know, I bleed for me and mine
ka-boom, a
rat-tat-tat, and some good ole bliss
cause I'm
a sister, and I'm a motherfuck
I am made
of shamrocks, I am made of stern stuff
I am never
enough, I am the forgotten child
and I said
I wanna fill you up, I wanna break you, I wanna give you up
from one another,
no one should ever come
in between
us, between us and our love
mary had a
little lamb, her face was white as snow
and everywhere
that mary went I was sure to go
now mary's
got a problem, and mary's not a stupid girl
mary's got
some deep shit, and mary does not forget
and this is
how mary's garden grows, and this is how mary has her ghosts
and into the
eyes of the jackyl I say ka-boom
now we begin
descent, to where we've never been
there is no
going back, this wasn't meant to last
this is a
hell on earth, we are meant to server
and she will
never learn
bye bye, baby
goodbye
we only
come out at night
we only come
out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come
out at night
and once again,
you'll pretend to know me well, my friends
and once again,
I'll pretend to know the way
thru the empty
space
thru the secret
places of the heart
we only come
out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come
out at night
I walk alone,
I walk alone to find the way home
I'm on my
own, I'm on my own to see the ways
that I can't
help the days, you will make it home o.k
I know you
can, and you can
we only come
out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come
out at night
and once again,
you'll pretend to know that
there's an
end, that there's an end to this begin
it will help
you sleep at night
it will make
it seem that right is always right
alright?
we only come
out at night
beautiful
beautiful,
you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun
wonderful,
you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come
and I can't
help but feel attached
to the feelings
I can't even match
with my face
pressed up to the glass, wanting you
beautiful,
you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky
wonderful,
it's wonderful, to know that you're just like I
and I'm sure
you know me well, as I'm sure you don't
but you just
can't tell
who'll you
love and who you won't
and I love
you, as you love me
so let the
clouds roll by your face
we'll let
the world spin on to another place
we'll climb
the tallest tree above it all
to look down
on you and me and them
and I'm sure
you know me well, as I'm sure you don't
but you just
can't tell, who you'll love and who you won't
don't let
your life wrap up around you
don't forget
to call, whenever
I'll be here
just waiting for you
I'll be under
your stars forever
neither here
nor there just right beside you
I'll be under
the stairs forever
neither here
nor there just right beside you
lily
(my one and only)
lily, my one
and only
I can hardly
wait till I see her
silly, I know
I'm silly
cause I'm
hanging in this tree
in the hopes
that she will catch a glimpse of me
and thru her
window shade
I watch her
shadow move
I wonder if
she.......?
lily, my one
and only
love is in
my heart and in your eyes
will she or
won't she want him
no one knows
for sure
but an officer
is knocking at my door
and thru her
window shade
I watch her
shadow move
I wonder if
she could only see me?
and when I'm
with her I feel fine
if I could
kiss her I wouldn't mind the time it took to find
my lily, my
one and only
I can hardly
wait till I see her
oh lily, I
know you love me
cause as they're
draggin me away
I swear I
saw her raise her hand and wave (goodbye)
by starlight
by starlight
I'll kiss you
and promise
to be your one and only
I'll make
you feel happy
and leave
you to be lost in mine
and where
will we go, what will we do?
soon said
i, will know
dead eyes,
are you just like me?
cause her
eyes were as vacant as the seas
dead eyes,
are you just like me?
and all along,
we knew we'd carry on
just to belong
by starlight
I know you
as lovely
as a wish granted true
my life has
been empty, my life has been untrue
and does she
really know, who I really am?
does she really
know me at last
dead eyes,
are you just like me?
farewell
and goodnight
goodnight,
to every little hour that you sleep tite
may it hold
you through the winter of a long night
and keep you
from the loneliness of yourself
heart strung
is your heart frayed and empty
cause it's
hard luck, when no one understands your love
it's unsung,
and I say
goodnight,
my love, to every hour in every day
goodnight,
always, to all that's in your heart
goodnight,
may your dreams be so happy and your
head lite
with the wishes of a sandman and a night light
be careful
not to let the bedbugs sleep tight nestled in your covers
the sun shines
but I don't
a silver rain
will wash away
and you can
tell, it's just as well
goodnight,
my love, to every hour in every day
goodnight,
always to all that's pure that's in your heart